~~~Juan Juan~~~

Monday, May 28, 2007

This few weeks sermons regarding beatitudes have indeed let me think a lot, reflecting on myself of all the big and little flaws which I have, thinking if I am able to meet these expectations. But I know it is good and it will help me emerge to become someone of a better character.. its really a time of molding and shaping of my life and character.

Read Hazel’s blog.. have similar tots as her.. haiz.. its really important who we let into our inner circle of frenz.. like what pastor has preached, dun be a simpleton and gullible.. There are so many times in my life where I have been so gullible, believing pple easily and result in myself getting hurt all over again… I guessed it is really time to choose my friends whom I want to let into my inner circle carefully.. cos just one wrong discernment and it could impact ur life greatly.
For me, I always find that honesty and integrity plays a big part in a relationship and friendship. Though the truth hurts sometimes, but it will help u change for the better. I would rather u let me know my flaws rather than hide it and backstab me behind my back. Sometimes, its really scary when u realized the ones closest to ur heart are actually the ones that betray ur trust the most. It really make me wonder what really is in there in every man’s heart. Making it harder and harder for me to trust man each day.

I really want to discern better each day, making sure I dun make wrong decisions and regret it later. And I know the only one who can help me is none other then Jesus himself.

Shujuan12:17 PM

Memories, memories and memories.. :(

Shujuan12:50 AM

Friday, May 18, 2007

Went for dinner with Jo and Jing yesterday at novena Sq pepper lunch. Chatted about the 9pm Mars Vs Venus show. Haha.. me and Jing started to get kinda agitated while we were talking about how Steven (Tay Ping Hui) were fooling around with his ex gf when his wife were so worried about him, calling him lotsa time!! Haiz, guess that is wat will happen when there is a lack of communication in a marriage. The show really reflects well on what is happening to most of the marriages today.

Then we started sharing about our own family life… Jo started sharing hers and soon I started sharing mine… talked about my uncle who used to stay at my place last time. Hw he used to summoned me to do things and bullied me. Thinking back, I really want to thank God cos I know its him that pulled me thru.. many times I wanted so much to retaliate back, but each time I was afraid. Many times I would go over to Nette’s place to cry.. and I mean really a lot of times. Whenever I got bullied, the only ones I turn to will be her and God. No One Else.. Its really amazing hw life is with God. Although I am facing these circumstances at home, I would still be a very jovial girl in sch. Each time, I would just lift it to God, finding comfort in him. Its really him that gave me the joy.

I can really imagined hw my life would be without him then, perhaps I would not be who I am today. I guess most likely I would be a super rebellious ger that doesn’t want to go home. Its really God that teaches me how to forgive and let go. I really want to thank him for whatever things he had done for me, Though I give up this walk b4, he nv let me go. He is always faithful!

I love you Jesus. =) Thank You!

Shujuan12:45 PM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

I am so excited now... Awaiting Jes's return which is tmr!!

Yeah!! 5 mths pass so fast sia... remeber sending him off to hk ard 3 jan this yr.. and now he is back!!

Shall do lotsa catching up with him.. guess he will speak differently now... haha... maybe with a tinge of honkie accent???

1 more day

Grinz =)

Shujuan5:38 PM

Saturday, May 05, 2007

If the hero, never comes to you
If you need someone, you’re feeling blue
If you wait for love, and you’re alone
If you call your friends, nobody’s home

You can rum away, but you can’t hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I’ll show you there’s a destiny
The best things in life, they are free

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you’re feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There’s a place in heaven, where we’ll go
If heaven is, a million years away
Oh just call me and I’ll make your day

When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay by your side
I promise you, I’ll never hide

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you’re feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry: cry on my shoulder
If you need someone, who cares for you
If you’re feeling sad, your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

Shujuan12:05 AM

Friday, May 04, 2007

Hey pple, I am back. Hehe..

Past two weeks was extremely busy at work due to welcome orientations and examinations and it’s ready tedious as the students are of a large intake.

Well, caught 2 movies recently. One of which is 200 pounds Beauty.. its super super super nice!! Very realistic show… Extremely funny and touching at the same time. Many memories ran through my mind as I watched the show. Can really empathize with the ger a lot. I mean the her before she went for plastic surgery. Cos I got same remarks from pple ard me b4 esp during younger days. Many nick names were given to me! And I mean really a lot… at least 10??? Or more??? Sometimes I will wonder to myself? Is there anything wrong being more fat, meaty, fleshy than others? Y only fat pple got ostracized? Initially will get abit sad with those remarks, but after some time, u get immunized. U will come to a stage where u will tk things lightly already, that’s y pple always say I tk things by my stride… not that I dun care. But perhaps, I am really used to it.

The show also depicts hw superficial man can be.. hw many of them only go for slim and pretty gers..while those fatter and uglier ones are often not noticed at all. Agree with wat Jing say in her blog, probably that’s why many gers went for plastic surgeries.. just for the sake of pleasing man’s lust! I would say not all man la.. but most… the part which make my blood boils was when the guy actually despised the ger when he knew she had plastic surgery!! That’s really very bad of him, have he ever tot who she did it for in the first place??? Haiz… haha.. y suddenly I sound so emo? On a happier note, I use to tell my frenz if a guy really like me, he for sure like me for who I am, cos I am not those pretty and slim gers out there. Heh heh.. I am special!! :)

The next show I watched was Spiderman 3!! I think its nice though many commented that its not as nice as Spiderman 2. perhaps becos I have actually forgotten most parts of it already. Up next, I gonna watch Pirates of Carribean 3!! Hazel and Joanna keep commenting that Chow Yun Fatt moustache is very long!! Pengz.

Yeah… finally its weekends again… Miss Jo coming over my place to help me dye my hair. Hopefully, it would absorb in the colour :)

Shujuan6:46 PM